One word. Sketchy.
This is not because I am a Kadi shipper and am bitter about it (I mean I am, but that’s not the point), but because of the whole situation.
Congratulations, by the way. But, since I’m a hardcore Kadi shipper, I don’t think I can give a sincere congratulation (I’m a bad fan, sorry). To be frankly honest, I hate it. I almost smashed my laptop to the wall when I first read the news online. I got moody all day; I just finished watching Gintama 2015—the last episode practically killed me—earlier that day, on April 1st, so I was still feeling heartbroken. And then, I got a feeling that I should open my facebook account (yes I still use the thing) and saw a news about BTS fooling around on April Fool on soompi. But then, I glanced to the side area of the site and saw the tell tale “BREAKING : EXO Kai and f(x) Krystal are......”, and right then and there, my already heartbroken heart broke a lot more. I think it turned into dust.
I was super upset more than anything (I still am). I wasn’t even jealous or sad or disappointed or anything. I was UPSET, super duper UPSET I didn’t know what to do anymore. I also had a big presentation later that day and like, God, help me.
Okay, onto the topic. I am not here to write down what I’m feeling. Like I said on the first line, this Kaistal being exclusive is just sketchy. Everything about the entertainment world is sketchy as hell okay. Everything about SM ENTERTAINMENT is sketchy. That agency is just kinda fucked up, seriously.
So, why I think this Kaistal stuff is so sketchy is because of some reasons that maybe somehow make sense. This is just my opinion alright so please be kind to me. You can judge all you want, but please please please, be kind to me. My heart is still fragile, I just realized that I just lost the purpose of my life (Kadi is the purpose of my life. I’m being dramatic, I know), so please, be kind.
Okay, first. The timing. It is so right, so precise, too precise even that it almost doesn’t make sense. What I’m trying to say is, at the age of 22 (23 in SK), and after being friends for God knows how long, affections may appear between Kaistal. It’s inevitable, and I can accept that. They are both more mature now, their career are going well (with bumps here and there), they are a boy and a girl fully known what love is (at least they understand a little bit about love from all those love songs they’ve sung over and over again) and they are artists under the same agency and tend to run into each other a lot of times, so it is inevitable that affections may grow for each other.
The 20s is the perfect age for people to start falling in love. It’s the age when people are very curious about themselves and start experimenting with stuffs—and one of them is falling in love. But the thing is, why now? Dispatch said (I really shouldn’t believe anything Dispatch says, but whatever I don’t know who to believe anymore but my Dear God) that Kaistal are just recently started being romantically involved with each other. But EXO was super busy at that time (since last year until very recently), so how could Kai not drop dead juggling between crazy schedules and injuries and dating (or being romantically involved with someone)?
Second, the pictures of them going on “dates” are weird. From what I remember, Kaistal are the kind of guys who are kind of anti-camera whenever they have their own personal time. Krystal is always putting on that ice cold expression whenever cameras are around during her personal time (I’m not really sure either, please correct me if I’m wrong) and Kai is also like that. They both give off this kind of “personal time means me time and I really don’t want to be disturbed by cameras and flashes so please get away from me” vibe, so when I saw the pictures of them on “dates”, they look very ready to be caught on camera. They’re, like, deliberately jumping in front of those camera lenses so that people could get pictures of them together on alleged “dates”. Shouldn’t people who love their me time to be their me time avoid those cameras? Shouldn’t they, like, “shit there’s a camera over there we’re going to be caught outing together let’s go that way to avoid it” or something?
And third, SM confirmed it so fast it felt like it was prepared beforehand. Like, when you know what kind of material that’s going to be asked by your teacher and so you prepared the answers already and when your teacher that question you already got your answer for, you immediately raise your hand and answer it.
Or something like it.
Oh and also, none of their friends are saying anything. I mean, hello, Taemin, where are you?
These are just what have been bothering me for the past three days since the news came out, though. Also, the news came out on April 1st, which means that it could mean anything but the truth. I’m just saying though.
I’m going to get bashed because of this post, OMG what have I done.
Maybe I’m just reading too much into it. Maybe I’m just delusional. Maybe I love Kadi too much I don’t want that ship to crumble into inexistence. I really just want to get all this out of my head so I can tend to more important matters, like, my undergraduate thesis, for example.
Huh. Maybe that’s all.
P.S. : I'm crossposting it on my tumblr too, but I'll post it there later. The wi-fi here sucks. It's the same thing and if you want to visit my tumblr, here.